If you come from a large family like me, you know that it’s more chaos than harmony most of the time. There are squabbles, arguments, never-ending discussions, and grudges. It’s part of family life! It gets annoying from time to time. There are days when you feel like strangling your very own sibling. There are days when you are wishing that you were born with a different set of parents. That’s life!

Right now, I am leaning more on being alone than being part of a large family. I am so annoyed with a sibling that I want to kick the sibling out of the house! If only I can do it…

Next year…

When you get little,you want more. When you get more, you desire even more. But when you lose it, you realize LITTLE was enough.

I got that quote from my aunt in her status update in Facebook. Don’t you just think it’s bullseye?! Too true!

We are greedy by nature. We want more and more even if what we have should be enough already. We still envy what others have. Someone I know is too materialistic. Couldn’t stop shopping even if she knows she doesn’t need most of the things she kept on buying.

We’ve been in that place and time when most of the things were taken from us. We were left with LITTLE. And you know what? We survived! We realized that it’s enough and there’s happiness to having little.

Some parents feel the need to curtail their kids’ freedom by saying NO to courting or dating. I know the parents mean well. But look at me and my sisters. We grew up afraid that our parents would get mad at us for entertaining suitors. We ended up making it a secret to them. My sister, the one next to me, even kept her boyfriends from us.

Wouldn’t it be great for kids to share their love lives with their parents? At least the parents can guide their kids and advise them on what is right and wrong. Rather than the kid keeping it a secret and entertaining suitors outside the house. Or dating secretly. That will put them in potential trouble more than when the parents know with whom their kids are going out with.

I got my dad’s temper. I easily flare up! I can feel myself getting angry over something I wasn’t even remotely angry about, and just because my dad nagged me about something!

This morning, I took care of an important matter. I dealt with difficult people. It wasn’t in my mind to be angry because I really try to be positive most of the time. But my dad nagged me about it. When I found a way to track a person I was dealing with, I flared up! I felt my hands turned cold and my emotions were running high. I was angry, in short!

I wish I didn’t get my dad’s temper. I can’t afford to be that angry again. I just might keel over if I get that angry again.

I was very lucky growing up. I had doting aunts, a grandmother and grand-aunts. They all made me feel loved and appreciated and I think they are the reason that I am strong and capable of so much more.

I spent most of my childhood at my grandma’s house. During weekends and school breaks, you could find me there all the time. In fact, I wasn’t that close to my siblings when I was younger because I spent most of my time with my male cousins who also live beside grandma’s house. I loved those days I spent at my grandma’s simply because I got almost everything I wanted while I was there. My grand-aunt would cook whatever dish I wanted. I got to play as long as I wanted and I didn’t have to do the dishes while I was with them. My grandma would make sure that I was well-provided for all the time.

Can you imagine how devastated I am right now that my grandma is very sick? She is bedridden already and is suffering from diabetes. And I can’t do anything but watch her slowly fade away.

My heart is in anguish. I can’t bear to look at her because my heart breaks into tiny pieces just seeing her breathing shallowly.

If only I can take her place I’d do it.