I wonder what it’s like to live all alone. Where it’s quiet all the time and there’s no one to come knocking at the door. I wonder what the person living like that feels whenever a special occasion is held. Or when the person sees families enjoying each others’ company.

Loneliness can be a living thing inside a person. It can eat away at your heart, in your mind…

Especially this holiday season.

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I wish I can say that I will totally just relax and have fun this weekend. That’s not true at all! I will have to work and catch up and do more tasks.

I also have to run some errands on Sunday for my sister and my dad.

But I am still happy that weekend is here!

Happy weekend everyone!

Give to the world the best you have, and the best will come back to you.

- Madeline Bridges

Ah, it’s mid-week once again.

Happy Wednesday to all!

When I woke up in the middle of the night, I felt cold. We really can’t deny that Christmas is just around the corner now. It was drizzling a few minutes ago, adding to the cold breeze of the morning.

When I was in college, I remember planning to work somewhere cold, a place where it snows. Maybe it’s the Asian in me. I wanted to experience it not just on a vacation but like an ordinary citizen of a country that snows. Weird of me?

Well, I have yet to experience a white Christmas. Next year, I think…

It just a few weeks before Christmas. Less than 40 days now, in fact. Are you excited? Can you actually still feel the holiday spirit considering the state of our economies these days? What are your plans?

My family and I will probably spend Christmas day at my grandma’s house or visit my mom’s grave. Of course there will be the usual Noche Buena but we will not really go all out on the 25th.

What about you?

I have never been one to gamble or bet. Although I see it being done by people older than me, I don’t feel any pull towards throwing away my money on something as risky as gambling. I don’t think I ever will.

That’s why I can’t understand why a mother would risk her kids’ meal money in betting. I have a neighbor who’s very much like that. She would tell others that her husband is not leaving them money to buy food. But then my dad heard that she’s actually betting their meal money instead of using it to feed her three kids!

I was so mad at the mother for doing it. I can understand why she’s doing it. She’s hoping their money will double or triple. But then at whose expense? Her kids will always go hungry if she continue with her ways. Tsk tsk!

There was a big mall sale here in the city last July 30th to August 1st. There were so many things you could buy at really cheap prices. But you know what? I was only able to buy a few items plus my sister’s cellphone gift to me. That’s substantial already but there were home items we wanted to buy that time.

Unfortunately for us, when there’s a mall-wide sale like that, it seems that we don’t have enough funds we can tap into. It’s been like that. Always.

The One Above might be telling us that we don’t need the ones that we can’t buy. Maybe that’s it. Or maybe next sale will be the one when we can buy a lot?

Life is unfair. I have never been more sure of this than now.

My grandma, as I’ve said in a previous post, is currently very sick. She is bedridden due to diabetes. She has bedsores and is in pain. We couldn’t do anything anymore for her. It’s gone that bad already.

She has been a very good provider for her siblings when they were growing up. She is the eldest and even when her siblings got married, she was their go-to person in times of trouble. Even our relatives would go to her for help. But look at her now, suffering, and those people whom she has helped don’t even visit her. It’s really unfair! Shouldn’t good people be treated kindly in their old age?

Ah, life! I wish it will treat me kindly in the future. Unlike how it is treating my grandma now.